PRICE CHECK ON AISLE 2!


i walk through the automatic doors of the shaw's. only the green, misaligned shopping cart and the nicely dressed woman-couple precede me. vacant expression on my face and the dark circles under my eyes giving me the appearance of a boxer that lost. my face shifts into a frown as i realize that the nice woman-couple in front of me are walking too slow and there is no way around them. i pause to notice the advertisement facing me at the end of my cart-- toasted, not fried. i chuckle-- how 'bout a little of both?!

finally making my escape, i quickly begin filling my cart. i just need to do this last errand so that i can go home and crash! it's been an exceptionally long two weeks and at then end of my very long and busy day, it's all i can do to buy food so i can eat.

i stop in front of the frozen foods and look down at my choices thus far:

6 liters of diet coke (duh, it's not all for me-- i share)
2 things of newman's own lemonade (i freaking love this stuff)
2 boxes of frozen lemonade
1 thing of milk

thirsty anyone???

it's at this point in the evening where i realize just how malnourished i am. just in case you are wondering, i don't really eat anymore. no- it's not some eating disorder-- dudes, it's not really even that conscious of a choice. but here is the deal...

i am too busy to eat. i know that sounds dumb, but it's true. i have been literally racing from one job to the other every day for the past week and a half. JOB A: there is maybe time for a little snack and then we are off on the next adventure. JOB B: when there is time to sit down, it's usually filled with teacher's meetings or some new problem with one of the kids-- and it needs immediate attention. and then when i do get home, i am so brain dead and tired that if i didn't stop at THE BK on the way home- i don't eat (like last night for example).

so back to the frozen foods section. can you believe that it took me another 15 minutes to convince myself that i needed to buy real food... and let me tell you what a dilemma it was to wander around aimlessly (continuously bumping into that darned woman-couple who were buying all organic shcmoo) as i try to tell myself that maybe i will want to eat it later-- is this pathetic or what??? don't worry too much, i was able to buy stuff and i did eat dinner tonight... go me!!!

the good news is that i will not always be this busy. in fact at the end of august i will probably have more time on my hands then i really want. oh but that still may not solve my problem- i probably won't have money to buy the food with anyway. cheers to a size 4, huh???

chinese philosopher once said: when one does not eat- one will go crazy

let me tell you buddy- i'm already there!