ATTENTION... ATTENTION PLEASE...
but will a Miss Peggy D please step out of the UNEMPLOYMENT LINE and join the ranks of the other fortunate contributing members of society. report to your new place of employment on MONDAY MORNING sharp... and start making some sweet sweet cash.
i know that at least once a month i (being a woman) get a YOU CAN BE EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE FREE card. today i would like to trade that card in to be viewed as though i am completely normal.
in the past 12 hours i have teared up when i thought of all my friends in boston and italy that i miss-- no really-- nostalgic central.
i have cried more for the break-up from this last dude, than i did the day after the break-up.
i got the biggest urge to get married-- to anyone-- when i was meandering through the christmas isle at target... i just can't fathom being alone on yet one more "christmas to remember!" so even if you are missing most of your teeth and have a gimp arm-- i'll take you!
blerh!
also while i was meandering at target (this is what one does when one is unemployed), i heard a tune echoing through the cd isle from one of those boxes with 20 CD's that you can click on and they play you a sample song Bing Crosby style or Pan Flute Christmas-- yeah-- well there was an irish flute piece playing and i almost started to cry! what the...
this is when i then headed to the medicine section and looked for midol with a mild sedative.
MY NEW FAVORITE GAME:
CHANGE THE WORLD
assuming that i live a life good enough to get myself into the CK. i have decided when i create my own world i will have the following things:
~ when it snows it will snow banana slurpees... and dogs will pee bright blue (so you will be able to tell where the bad snow is).
~ money really will grow on trees, being more easily come by so that there will be less shortage. those that work hard outside will reap the bennies of a large bank account.
~ mullets will NOT be possible. somehow the hair follicles won't ever allow the hair to be cut into a mullet... including but not limited to the RAT-TAIL and SHE-MULLETS. magically it will just grow out and lay flat. bliss.
yeah... that and some other stuff. but it's a start.
MY WEEKEND PLANS
a) a red sox game with one of the most gorgeous women i have ever met!
b) rockport, maine with awesome peeps
c) church at my most favorite church EVER!
d) a gathering of old chums
LIFE IS GOOD RIGHT NOW... and then monday comes, work begins, and total mayhem ensues! live it up while you can!
HELLO FROM 3 AM... AGAIN
once again i find myself wide awake when it seems as though all the world is peacefully slumbering... well not in the eastern part of the world where they're already well into the day.
the only difference between this time and the last time that i was miserably unable to sleep is the fact that this time, the insomnia is not drug-related. that's good right? or not so much.
i am so keyed up right now that my muscles actually feel like they are vibrating. lame.
guess that means it's time for a word vomit!
- i, once again, have said YES to too many things. i have been, unsuccessfully, trying to work on 5 different projects... so it always seems like i am 2 steps behind. i'm behind on calling people back, responding to emails/facebook stuff, trying to reschedule dinner dates or other such social exploits because i had to cancel. i feel like NOTHING is getting the attention it deserves... and that includes some of my favorite relationships. then it makes me feel guilt-ridden, and that NEVER does a body good!
- i feel like i have had more than my fair share of people snafu's over the past few weeks. i seem to either be putting my foot in my mouth, doing the wrong thing, not doing what i need to be doing, forgetting something or someone, or somehow being rude when i didn't know i was being rude. i just can't get it or keep it together this month!
- i'm worried about traveling in new countries all by myself. i've had two separate nightmares that i got lost in an airport in france and couldn't get to my connecting train on time... in one of the dreams i then had to sleep in the airport until the next day and i got stalked by a homeless man that sort of looked like PRINCE! anyone want to travel with me to italy in june?
- i'm worried about money for this summer. i know i shouldn't fret... the company will pay me each week and i should be just fine with the amount i'll have saved by the time i go... but i can't help but worry about the unknown.
- i sometimes feel trapped here in utah. i can't figure out what about utah makes me feel this way, but i feel it nonetheless. so the thought of staying here after i return from my summer 'o' fun, gets me a little moody... even with really cool things happening here that are on the horizon.
okay, i think that's enough for now. do we think this vomit has helped? i am hoping that the minute i push send it will also send along some lethargic vibes to my synapses and tell them to chill out so i can sleep for just a few hours.
i guess if this doesn't work, there's always counting sheep... right?
