THE TALE OF MY SCALE

i've gained weight.

no this isn't some lame girly attempt at being told "NO WAY- you're so skinny!"

it's just the reality of my world right now. i got on a scale a week ago- for the first time in probably 5 months and wa-ho there tiger... looks a tiny bit different than the last time i checked... and not in a good way! oops.

but rather than boo-hoo in the corner and wish things were different, i've decided to own up to my horrible eating habits, take responsibility for the fact that i haven't been exercising as much as i should... and use my blog as a way to have a little accountability!

so how to make the change???

STEP 1: own up to your crap!
i noticed that when i was working on peter pan that i had THE WORST eating habits known to man- mainly i developed the habit of eating at my desk-- all the time. i always had some form of food item open in front of me and with all the stress i was under i was shoving it in as fast as i could... NOT OKAY.

i also noticed that i wasn't leaving my desk for literally hours at a time. i would begin a project and continue working on it until it was done... by that time, my joints were stiff and my bladder was full to capacity. also, NOT OKAY.

and to top it off- i was working so many hours i had ZERO energy or brain matter left for the thought of exercise. you can call it an excuse if you want- but honestly i just dropped dead every night after work. again, NOT OKAY.

so all these behaviors + 4 months of doing it = weight gain. obviously.

however, knowing this is really half of my battle... cause now i can see how to correct it.


STEP 2- change
a) eat only at meal times and allow myself 1 afternoon snack a day
b) get up and move around while at work. eat lunch in green room. get outside at least one time a day
c) cardio 2 times a week- toning 2 times

i've heard people talk about lacking will-power... i guess that could be true... but for me it's more about what motivates me rather than will-power. and the fact that my jeans aren't fitting they way they used to, coupled with summer is on it's way... means i am highly motivated to make these changes... like... ummm... now!


STEP 3: follow-through
this is the hardest part for me. sure i am motivated today... i probably will be motivated through the next two weeks. but then what? will i still be plugging along, doing pilate's and not eating all the time? i don't know. exercise is probably the hardest part for me... not that i don't love to exercise- it's making the time to do it! okay and sometimes- truthfully- i'm just not in the mood and would rather watch a movie snuggled up in my bed.

so the biggest part of my goal is to keep in the game... even weeks from now. so let's check in with each other from time to time, okay?

my goal is to lose the 10 superfluous pounds that i gained this past winter by the time i go to visit my parents in may... i can totally do that!!!

8 1/2 weeks and counting!