so one day it's possible to feel like crap

and then the next day realize you were being silly

and then the very next day after that you realize how lucky you are

and you are humbled

and so life continues like this in the same cycle

until one day, when you start to feel like crap, you stop yourself

and remind yourself that you indeed are a very lucky person

then you don't have to go through the few days of poop-dom

maybe when i'm 80 i will finally get how to do that

until then i will just be content with realizing TODAY that i am a lucky girl.