3 a.m.


hello from 3 am... this is peggy reporting that absolutely nothing interesting happens when you suffer from insomnia and are pointlessly awake at 3 am. so now that i have made the necessary trip to the bathroom, read 10 pages in the Book of Mormon (the story of ammon gives me chills every time!), and checked both email accounts-facebook-blogs-and my bank account, i have run out of things to do to pass the time. so now i will just pontificate.

did anyone else just feel that general conference today was overwhelmingly amazing? i just didn't want it to end. i was soaking in all of the spiritual juices like an old crackly sponge that hadn't seen water in years. and president monson makes me feel like grabbing a cozy blanket and curling up at his feet to listen to his stories and feel his warmth. gosh i LOVE being a member of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. people that mock and scoff just don't get it- it's amazing and i'm lucky.

so i am getting really tired of flaky people. i get it that we are all busy (and when i say WE i really mean YOU because i don't have anything better to do than sit around and wait for my life to work itself out) but the fact of the matter is-- if you can't commit to something- than don't say you're going to do it and then not do it... it's rude and annoying. and so to the people in my life that have been doing this lately-- i love you- but you suck!

the other night i had this most amazing conversation with someone very dear to my heart and because of that conversation i have decided to take up crocheting (by the way i totally had to look up how to spell the word crochet). i am actually very excited to go to the store tomorrow- or rather today- and buy some yarn and some needles or hooks or whatever you call them and then take a few lessons. the goal now is to have a scarf made by christmas. oh and i was also thinking as i lay here that also learning how to play the guitar could be cool.

in the past year i have been on dates with two guys that remind me so much of each other that it's actually uncanny. they have a few things in common- both of them talk incessantly about themselves- both of them asked me questions about myself and after i started talking, interrupted me to continue to talk about themselves- both of them attempt to mask their insecurities by ingratiating themselves and using money to impress and last but not least both of them have honestly asked me the question (and this is AFTER i just got done listening to them talk about themselves for 2 hours) "so do you have any more questions about me?" are you kidding??? who asks people to ask questions about them??? or maybe people do that and i missed the memo. honestly- i would have asked if i had questions! but they didn't give me a chance to catch up to them after sharing their entire life story with me in a 2 hour setting. so when this most recent dude asked me that question, toward the end of our date, i responded how i responded to the first guy that had asked me that "well do you have any questions for me?" i'm sure this comes across as a selfish way to respond-- but for a guy that 'seems' so into me- it seems he doesn't really want to know anything about me. props to guy #2 for actually asking a question because guy #1 said (and i'm not exaggerating) "no, i don't think so." hahahah! anyway post date, guy #2 texted me the usual post-date-schmoo and i responded and then, i kid you not, his very next text said and i quote "if you have more questions about me, don't hesitate to ask, work is really boring on fridays." SERIOUSLY?!? what could i possibly need to ask? he didn't leave anything out on the date!! so i responded with, and i know this was not the response he was looking for- but i couldn't help but just be straight with the dude- "i think it's funny that you keep asking me to ask questions about you, is there something your dying to tell me that i haven't asked you about?" his response to that took roughly 4 or so hours and then i haven't heard from him since. sorry dude #2- but just like dude #1- it's just not going to work out. but i just can't help but feel sorry for these guys who mask their insecurities in this way. and i know they just can't see how they are coming across and how unattractive it is. gosh i wish there were penalty cards for dating and if you get yellow carded by someone you're on a date with you have to attend a mandatory class on social skills and proper ways of interacting or you can't go on any more dates!

to be honest with you- i HATE election time. don't get me wrong, electing a new president is exciting and interesting and it helps us, as a country, take a look at what we do need to change and all that jazz. but seriously i am so sick and tired of 3rd grade playground politics banter. i'm sick of reading news articles and blogs facebook messages with people making fun of senator palin for not being able to pronounce words correctly or senator biden being emotional. i think there is definitely room to make light of politics and to make fun of the mayhem that is capitol hill (go here for a great example) i know as citizens of the united states of america we want and are entitled to a smart, well-spoken, well-informed person to represent our country... there's nothing wrong with that... but seriously to bash someone else for saying words wrong is quite elementary school of you and i don't want to hear about it anymore. i can't even count on both my hands and my feet how many times i have said wrong words in public speaking moments and heaven forbid i would have someone come up to me afterward and make fun of me for it. seriously can't we just stick to the real topics? can't we just worry about the real stuff and leave someone's weaknesses out of it for a change and talk about the issues? and why do people have to get so firey about it? you really and truly HATE that person? it can't be that you just disagree with his/her view? you actually have to despise them and get into heated, ugly arguments about how they suck? okay you PERFECT people out there- you should run for office and save us all from the world of imperfection that we currently live in! ugh. i can't wait til november has come and gone!

alright- i've word vomited enough for one early morning insomnia induced session. now that it's officially 3:50 am i am going to, once again, attempt to go to sleep. have a good night- or good morning... whatever... peace out!